It's ok.

I wrote a post a while ago about being kind to yourself and this one is pretty similar. I don't know about you but when I was told we would be in lockdown I thought of all the things that I would do and never get round to doing and all the things that I want to do inn this time. I thought this is a great opportunity to get all these things done. But you know what has happened? Nothing. I haven't started any of them. I have barely unpacked since moving back with my family.

The first weekend of lockdown, my friends posted all these pictures and comments about how productive they were being. I couldn't be any further from it. It was my dads birthday on the Saturday, my mum and I made him breakfast and we drank prosecco. This pattern has continued while the lockdown has been going on, not so much the prosecco part. I see other people being productive and I have been chilling in the garden. I am very lucky to have a garden where I am. I wouldn't have been able to do this before where I was before and so I am making the most of what I do have now. When the weather is so nice outside I don't want to spend it indoors.

Part of me feels bad as I have a list of things that I want to do but when the weekend comes I just end up chilling. I play with the dog and take him out for walks. I also spend time with the family. I think that I must do these things and give myself a hard time when I don't do all the things I want to do. I do get some small tasks done just not the big things. I know it's ok to not do everything but some days it is harder than others. I am much harder on myself as everyone is, I just need to remember it's ok to not do it all. Spending time with the family is just as important.

I wish I was more productive at weekends and would love to be one of those people that does all these jobs but at the moment it really isn't me. I am sure I am not alone in having chilled out weekends and not being very productive. It's ok to be this way.

Here is a picture of my family's dog from our lovely walk today. He loves a puddle or a pond in this case.